Whole Brain BS: Diary, 11/5 to 11/7/21

Pollyanna Grows Up; movies; Hallmark crap; Taylor's book, Whole Brain Living; Hemlock Club meeting; the "lump of ignorance"; constipation; Power vs Force book is BS.

Excrement! Diary 10/16 to 10/24/21

Shelf overload; Jane Austen; the end of self-therapy; Marsha Hunt; Pollyanna; antiphilosophy; Jung worthless? Dreams; Hemlock Club; pronouns; excrement! BB Journal; Dune; Henry Miller; writing doldrums; Writers of Kern

Failure of Creativity: Diary, 6/5 to 6/7/21

A dream; failure of creativity; my stupidity; Twitter squabble; pit of despair?; Blade movies; feeling drained and confused.

God of the Forest: Diary, 5/31 to 6/2/21

Working on a novel; Anna Faris & Scary Movies; Helen Vendler & Alexander Pope; Prison Diary dictation; Alan Watts & self-mastery; Bugsy Malone.

Hope vs Hate: Diary, 5/6 to 5/9/21

Old western movies; mindfulness; news hunger, terror, and hate; false memories and sense of self; horror movie remakes; Hemlock Club fizzle.

Maslow on Peak-Experiences: Diary 4/11 to 4/14/21

Final thoughts on Nabokov; Hemlock Club mtg; Michael Moore's Awful Truth; Andromeda series; story idea; Maslow's Motivation & Personality

Meditation & Me: Diary, 2/7 to 2/10/21

What might be the real reason that I’m resistant to meditation? Because I didn’t discover it myself and I have so many people trying to push it on me? Pure willfulness? (Which, like “you’re just stubborn,” is no explanation at all, just a label...

Diary, 1/24 to 1/28/2021

[Maslow's Motivation and Personality] provoked a lot of thought, though not necessarily anything earthshaking; I’ll have more to say when I type the quotes. It seemed to take a very long time. On 1/1/21 above I mention plodding through it, including having finished the first two chapters, so it took somewhat longer than three weeks.

Diary, 1/15 to 1/23/21

Listened to a vital hour-long discussion with Chris Hedges, How Republicans, Democrats, and the Media Have Weakened US Democracy. We are doomed; the only thing Hedges could suggest is impossible to me: basically, shut it all down, take to the streets and create chaos. “Mass sustained civil disobedience” is how he expressed it.

Diary, 2/28 to 12/25/20, My Return to Civilization

Sometimes when I ponder events of my childhood or youth, I feel a twinge of rage against that stupid boy, wanting, sorta, to choke or punch him. Is this guilt, or shame, or what? Shopped at Barnes & Noble yesterday and spent about $120.00, coming home with three books...

Diary 2/23 to 2/27/2020

So I’ve begun stocking up for the coronavirus panic, spending $150 at Food Maxx this morning. I needed groceries anyway, and so might have spent $100, but I doubled up on some things, like getting three dozen eggs...