Philosophy & anti, Rorty & Russell, Chomsky, movie reviews, Cornel West, philosophy vs Philosophy, and so on. Lots of quotes.
Carl Jung; kinds of minds; Vanity Fair movie; dream about books; a day wasted.
Writing prompts; Cioran quote and words as blunt instruments; Sophie's World; failing memory again; two bad movies.
How books saved my writing soul; plus whining about WordPress; and Eve Arden, Camus's Stranger, In the Fade, so, lots of potatoes ending with a burst of excitement.
How to create a fictional character? Lots of questions, maybe no answers. Includes a bit of psychology. This morning's struggle.
New commitment to writing; Walter Kaufmann; despair; disdain for E. M. Forster; Sideways, Augustine, and Scary Movie reviews; bored with Gestalt Therapy; self-mastery joke.
Meaning of life; movie reviews: Union Pacific, Romeo & Juliet; dieting & sodium; is my writing important to me? Natalie Goldberg; a reader for Kick Me; buy a car or hire a detective? Twitter blowup; Hemlock Club mtg & a philosophical point: why is truth important? Russell quote; & more
Book buying addiction; Natalie Goldberg; Yellowbeard & others; Bernard Herrmann; a writing mood; burden of knowledge; WordPress woes; Neurotribes & Asperger's; etc.
Getting inspiration; self-mastery books; psych quotes; movie reviews; sadness tweets; spirituality; racism; writing habits, etc.
Reviews of Frozen, Catwoman, and other movies; heart attack scare; book-buying splurge; my whims; publishing plan; and the usual blather.
Final thoughts on Nabokov; Hemlock Club mtg; Michael Moore's Awful Truth; Andromeda series; story idea; Maslow's Motivation & Personality
Highlander: I’ll be as honest as I can given that I’ve only ever read your tweets. You seem to me to be a liberal philosopher, slightly damaged, but feisty, a bit cantankerous, but we all get that way with age, and Impassioned about not only your beliefs but with ideas. You like to share.
Reading Lolita, enjoying it but also by turns annoyed and bored. It’s a peculiar book, makes me think that Nabokov was so afraid of his theme that he was unable to handle it with complete freedom—though it is, in fact, franker than I remembered.
“Does God exist? Answer: do you mean the God of Genesis as interpreted by a Stupid Christian Fanatic or do you mean some vague notion of something or other? Or: exist to shake hands with, or exist as unicorns exist? Exist to pray to, not expecting an answer?”
What might be the real reason that I’m resistant to meditation? Because I didn’t discover it myself and I have so many people trying to push it on me? Pure willfulness? (Which, like “you’re just stubborn,” is no explanation at all, just a label...
Even a schedule isn’t necessary; just a bookshelf. Each morning—mornings are best for this kind of work—take the book at the left, sit down with it, and go through it, either page-by-page or marker-by-marker (tape flags for target pages).
Whenever I’m about to meet with Nog, as this morning, I always worry about not having anything to say. Yet we always manage to fill four hours and I, at least, find the time all too short. If I were a younger man, I’d want to ...
[Maslow's Motivation and Personality] provoked a lot of thought, though not necessarily anything earthshaking; I’ll have more to say when I type the quotes. It seemed to take a very long time. On 1/1/21 above I mention plodding through it, including having finished the first two chapters, so it took somewhat longer than three weeks.
So I’ve begun stocking up for the coronavirus panic, spending $150 at Food Maxx this morning. I needed groceries anyway, and so might have spent $100, but I doubled up on some things, like getting three dozen eggs...
Culled from the Bullet Journal:
2/4: I can’t take my ‘depression’ seriously because it’s not justified by my life, because it doesn’t last, and because I don’t deserve any better. I don’t deserve joy.
2/6: I’m carrying a fuckton of well-earned guilt. What to do?