Philosophy & anti, Rorty & Russell, Chomsky, movie reviews, Cornel West, philosophy vs Philosophy, and so on. Lots of quotes.
Dreams, Next and Adaptation (movies), antiphilosophy, Judith Moore & me, books are my life.
Movie reviews, Durant book, Thriftbooks complaint, sudoku books, my new schedule, Twitter popularity, Anatol Lieven interview, novel plotting.
Carl Jung; kinds of minds; Vanity Fair movie; dream about books; a day wasted.
Writing prompts; Cioran quote and words as blunt instruments; Sophie's World; failing memory again; two bad movies.
Sybil movie; two novels die and another is born; horror movie mistake; Hemlock Club meeting; possible philosophy discussion.
A dream; failure of creativity; my stupidity; Twitter squabble; pit of despair?; Blade movies; feeling drained and confused.
Solving my angst? Reconsidering The Lolita Curse; to drink or not to drink; silent ringer kerfuffle; Irish Reader; haiku posted; Twitter dialogues; news sources; etc.
Meaning of life; movie reviews: Union Pacific, Romeo & Juliet; dieting & sodium; is my writing important to me? Natalie Goldberg; a reader for Kick Me; buy a car or hire a detective? Twitter blowup; Hemlock Club mtg & a philosophical point: why is truth important? Russell quote; & more
Final thoughts on Nabokov; Hemlock Club mtg; Michael Moore's Awful Truth; Andromeda series; story idea; Maslow's Motivation & Personality
So, a new direction, if I decide to stick with it: less philosophy reading, beginning work on a novel "to entertain myself." I've never tried this before, so I have unrealistic high hopes.
I like some horror movies and not others. The ones I like, including Psycho, Hellraiser, The Exorcist, and even something as overtly silly as Halloween (1978), may have some jump scares, but the movie as a whole is telling a story of a person, and the point is not simply to make you jump or to scare you. There is something deeper that the Paranormal Activity movies don’t have.
“Does God exist? Answer: do you mean the God of Genesis as interpreted by a Stupid Christian Fanatic or do you mean some vague notion of something or other? Or: exist to shake hands with, or exist as unicorns exist? Exist to pray to, not expecting an answer?”
Some of these, maybe all of these questions can be answered, but the sense of mystery remains: what am I that I can understand these things and ask these things? What kind of answer am I looking for? What kind of answer would not be “just words”? Must there be something unanalyzable, always, at the base of our knowledge?
What might be the real reason that I’m resistant to meditation? Because I didn’t discover it myself and I have so many people trying to push it on me? Pure willfulness? (Which, like “you’re just stubborn,” is no explanation at all, just a label...
Even a schedule isn’t necessary; just a bookshelf. Each morning—mornings are best for this kind of work—take the book at the left, sit down with it, and go through it, either page-by-page or marker-by-marker (tape flags for target pages).
[Maslow's Motivation and Personality] provoked a lot of thought, though not necessarily anything earthshaking; I’ll have more to say when I type the quotes. It seemed to take a very long time. On 1/1/21 above I mention plodding through it, including having finished the first two chapters, so it took somewhat longer than three weeks.
Also yesterday, I received a bill for $137,177.96 from Adventist Health White Memorial. Medicare is shown on the bill as paying $0.00...
N came to the Hemlock Club today and we talked for four hours. I told him about “the friendly voice” idea and that I thought I might give it a try. The idea is that you publish an ad saying “A friendly voice” and your phone number, hoping to encourage lost souls to call you to talk, hopefully thus relieving some suffering in the world. I used to worry that this would become a burden, and that indeed could happen; but I am not required to answer every call, necessarily, and I can limit calls to fifteen minutes. I originally wanted to have a separate phone number for this, and perhaps I’ll do that, though it would be some expense. Possibly Craigslist...
I see here “Lisa Simpson observing the conjunction of the moon and Venus.” I have subsequently realized that the moon is facing the wrong direction; that is, instead of “C” it should be “Ɔ”. This “spooky” coincidence is the most surprising and remarkable I’ve ever experienced, I believe. I see or assign no particular meaning to this “synchronicity.”