War; a poem; matter as empty space; disgust again; Fritz Perls on video; Hemlock Club mtg; Tao Te Ching; Thoreau; sick for days; In America & Nói DVDs; etc.
Book buying addiction; Natalie Goldberg; Yellowbeard & others; Bernard Herrmann; a writing mood; burden of knowledge; WordPress woes; Neurotribes & Asperger's; etc.
Getting inspiration; self-mastery books; psych quotes; movie reviews; sadness tweets; spirituality; racism; writing habits, etc.
Reviews of Frozen, Catwoman, and other movies; heart attack scare; book-buying splurge; my whims; publishing plan; and the usual blather.
Final thoughts on Nabokov; Hemlock Club mtg; Michael Moore's Awful Truth; Andromeda series; story idea; Maslow's Motivation & Personality
Hatcheting WW84 and Andromeda; Tolstoy's Confession; abandoning The Lolita Curse and possible plans for my future as a novelist. Etc.
I should not think of my effort as “writing a novel,” because I don’t know how to do that, and the thought makes me anxious. Rather, my old idea was to “accumulate scenes.” I can write scenes. It’s been five years since I wrote fiction...
A title occurs to me: The Curse of Lolita, or perhaps Lolita’s Curse, though the latter seems misleading. Or how about The Blessing of Lolita? I am not taken with it. Later thought: The Lolita Curse; this is the best version. I’ll live with it for a while and see. I’m thinking satire, which is not what I had in mind.
Highlander: I’ll be as honest as I can given that I’ve only ever read your tweets. You seem to me to be a liberal philosopher, slightly damaged, but feisty, a bit cantankerous, but we all get that way with age, and Impassioned about not only your beliefs but with ideas. You like to share.
He appears unexpectedly, escorting the drunken Branwell Brontë to the Parsonage late in the evening. He is assumed by one of the sisters to be another drunk. When he arrives at the Parsonage the next day, the event has unusual interest...
Reading Lolita, enjoying it but also by turns annoyed and bored. It’s a peculiar book, makes me think that Nabokov was so afraid of his theme that he was unable to handle it with complete freedom—though it is, in fact, franker than I remembered.
So, a new direction, if I decide to stick with it: less philosophy reading, beginning work on a novel "to entertain myself." I've never tried this before, so I have unrealistic high hopes.
I like some horror movies and not others. The ones I like, including Psycho, Hellraiser, The Exorcist, and even something as overtly silly as Halloween (1978), may have some jump scares, but the movie as a whole is telling a story of a person, and the point is not simply to make you jump or to scare you. There is something deeper that the Paranormal Activity movies don’t have.
“Does God exist? Answer: do you mean the God of Genesis as interpreted by a Stupid Christian Fanatic or do you mean some vague notion of something or other? Or: exist to shake hands with, or exist as unicorns exist? Exist to pray to, not expecting an answer?”
What might be the real reason that I’m resistant to meditation? Because I didn’t discover it myself and I have so many people trying to push it on me? Pure willfulness? (Which, like “you’re just stubborn,” is no explanation at all, just a label...
Even a schedule isn’t necessary; just a bookshelf. Each morning—mornings are best for this kind of work—take the book at the left, sit down with it, and go through it, either page-by-page or marker-by-marker (tape flags for target pages).
Whenever I’m about to meet with Nog, as this morning, I always worry about not having anything to say. Yet we always manage to fill four hours and I, at least, find the time all too short. If I were a younger man, I’d want to ...
[Maslow's Motivation and Personality] provoked a lot of thought, though not necessarily anything earthshaking; I’ll have more to say when I type the quotes. It seemed to take a very long time. On 1/1/21 above I mention plodding through it, including having finished the first two chapters, so it took somewhat longer than three weeks.
Listened to a vital hour-long discussion with Chris Hedges, How Republicans, Democrats, and the Media Have Weakened US Democracy. We are doomed; the only thing Hedges could suggest is impossible to me: basically, shut it all down, take to the streets and create chaos. “Mass sustained civil disobedience” is how he expressed it.
Also yesterday, I received a bill for $137,177.96 from Adventist Health White Memorial. Medicare is shown on the bill as paying $0.00...